Maybe Their Ancestors Were Protecting Them From Me
Unlike my other case studies, this is about the person who chose not to be my client….
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“Values conflict.”
That was the cancellation reason.
I received the email notification less than five minutes before I was due to hop on a discovery call with a potential client.
Side note: “hop on a discovery call” is such a funny phrase when you think about it. I guess it’s meant to imply the process as being easy and breezy; like we’re just two rabbits frolicking through a meadow of possibility. 🐰
When really what it means is: one person is about to be vulnerable: to market themselves and ask another person to not only believe in them but to pay them .
I don’t care how much inner work you’ve done.
Opening yourself up to potential rejection will never not be uncomfortable for the average human whose DNA is literally primed for connection and community.
Our nervous systems still interpret rejection as exile.
And exile once meant death.
We as a society also hate asking for money and hate selling ourselves- especially women where it can come across as negative, salesy, doing the most etc etc etc
Which is why i have had to do so much inner work to even suggest ‘hopping on a discovery call’ with prospective clients, and why , reading “values conflict” did sting.
That’s the sort of thing I would say to someone who told me they were pro Isreal - not in response to a Black woman helping other women reconnect to their power.
But here’s why their value may have conflicted: by the way I help women…
I help women create lives that feel deeply aligned. Women, particularly women of colour, who are tired of shrinking themselves and ready to step into more.
Part of that work is strategy.
Part of it is accountability.
Part of it is creative execution.
But the biggest part is using my clairsentience, ancestral wisdom and gifts that many people could label as “scary.” Or “weird”
Which is fine.
The older I get, the more I realise that being too much for the wrong people is often exactly enough for the right ones.
Or in the words of Jwaydan
Most humans have the depth capacity of a murky-pond. Truly. Suitable for a toad, not a great whale.
Like her and other gifted spiritual women
[…] people can’t deal with the tsunami of power I hold….
So I have to titrate and offer everything in bite sized pieces. And even then, I’m “too much”…….
You will always be rejected by someone, and like I said earlier humans can never overcome the feeling of rejection.
You can however, get faster at moving through it. Not everyday - a woman’s body does not operate like a male clock.Emotions can be easier and harder to unpack depending on my menstrual and moon cycle…
Today though it was a lot easier to consciously rewrite my thinking
Today I was standing in an identity that believed that everything was working out.
Even when it didn’t feel like it
And this new version of me said an interesting things on my dog walk today…
The dog walk
You’ve heard of : “God /your ancestors were protecting you.”
But have you heard :
Maybe their ancestors were protecting them from me?
That’s the message that came to me as I continue to gently unpack the sting of rejection as I was walking my dog Cocito
It felt empowering .
It felt dark
Not in an evil way but in a dark feminine way: raw, unapologetic power. The type of female energy that can not just birth but destruction like the goddess Kali brings
The type of power that demands you to unapologetically shake rooms and never beg for others forgiveness or acceptance for doing so.
Not every women can handle this; to break the archetype of the respectable woman, the nice woman, the always plays by the rules women…
When things doesn’t work out, we automatically position ourselves as the one who lost something.
Something was taken from us.
An opportunity.
A relationship.
A client.
A dream.
But what if it wasn’t taken from me?
What if it was taken from them?
What if their ancestors looked down and said:
“Absolutely not Sis. She is going to shake up your entire reality and you’re not ready for that yet. You are not ready to step into a new identity where you unashamedly release your energy and essence into the world and dont care who and who doesn’t get it … that would take too much breaking… too much destruction … too much power “
If you’re the woman reading this and instead of feeling intimidated you felt activated…
then perhaps your ancestors aren’t protecting you from me.
Perhaps they led you to my work… 👁️